Goodness me, its been awhile since I last posted on here. I need to get back into the habit but its difficult with the extensive school work thrown at me. I've been prioritising school assignments over my own outlets of enjoyment. 'Freak' has been nagging me at the back of my mind as it moves down on my 'to do' list. I've written pieces for it and soon they will become irrelevant therefore I'll need to publish something. I don't know how Tavi Gevinson does it or even got started. Maybe I'll take advantage of my 2 week holiday approaching in 5 or so weeks. I haven't even seen Gabbi (my partner-in-crime) at all this year. I want to do something about it though. ahhh
I've also been lacking inspiration and interesting ideas to write about. I feel my intelligence and writing ability has declined, not due to minimal blogging, but because of alcohol consumption (I know that sounds paranoid and silly). I don't drink much but I do feel its affected me in some way. Recently I've decided to just stop drinking alcohol and not aim to get drunk when I go to parties. People ask me, "Why aren't you drinking?", as I drink from my trusty water bottle and answer, "Got to stay hydrated." Imagine how pretentious I would sound if I say, "I don't want to kill my brain cells since I want to remain smart." I'll probably drink again when I feel I've reached my intellectual acme. I'm working to regain and expand my knowledge through various tactics including reading the dictionary and deleting 'very' from my vocabulary.
As of today, I've decided I will aim for an AUT (Auckland University of Technology) scholarship so I can get a Bachelor of Communications degree. Media is a powerful tool in planting ideas and ideals in our minds and I plan to use media to change the attitude of society and challenge people's thinking. I want to form a forward-thinking, innovative magazine that not only focuses on the usual 'music, fashion, art, culture' combo but also addresses world issues such as sexism and racism. Once the magazine is popular and successful, I will start a record label because music artists and magazines are inter-dependent. Despite the abundance of online magazines, I know my creations will appeal to the masses and I will still become a media mogul. I will build a fucking empire.
- freak out
